been some time since i blogged..
really cant make it a point to blog every day man~

birthday's over. not going to upload any pictures here. all on facebook and friendster.

yesterday went to jing si hall to stay over, today was he xin gong shi ying.
well..attended the sharing sessions for the shigu and shibo on saturday..
very touching.. where married couples come on stage to share about how tzu chi changed their marriage lifestyle..almost cried..but didn't..because quite paiseh to cry then..

ji yu shi bo came for a question and answer session..quite cute because the questions they asked are abit.......out of point..

anyway shi bo shared about shang ren.. whatever things she do..she always set a good image before she want to influence other people.."yi sheng zuo ze" in chinese.. this makes me think about what i m facing now..

suddenly feel so moody..so stress.. why have the teenagers nowadays changed so much..i really hope those graduated tzushaos will become a tzuching like us..not like me..but like us..cos i am not a good example..i didn't set the good example..and maybe because of that..i made them felt that "so what she is a tzuching, she is also like us. it doesn't mean that she is more well-behaved. she is still like a kid. what so good about her image..."

the one day camp ended, and i must say i learn a lot. shared abit about my past to grps 6 to 8 and continued the sharing when i was with my group. cried a little while sharing w them. well i have changed, i m not like that anymore and i m proud of it. i am glad i am in tzuchi and i know so many inspiring and nice people. cos because of that i will not and won't step back to that past anymore.

shangren "yi sheng zuo ze"..what about us? all of us signifies tzuchi. wherever we go, whether we are wearing uniforms or not. people know we are from tzuchi. maybe because of the uniform or maybe because they saw us before. yups tingting jiejie shared. even crossing the roads affect how people think of u..even normal pedestrian get complained by some aunties. what about us? we are from tzuchi, we need to have a better image. because whatever mistakes we do, not only affect our image, it also affect tzuchi image and shangren's image. that would be a serious issue already. how much bad comments had she received just because of our doings. be it in taiwan or worldwide. she had not complain about it or reprimand us. she accepts the comments and change her mindset. she thinks that it is her fault for not setting the good image. instead of asking us to change..she change..

we always say how great is tzuchi, others may doubt. and do u doubt? if u do. why?
tzuchi may be a fun place to be in, with nice and funny people. is that why u r in here? or r u in here for the fun and the work n the learnings and preaching. fun and work be together only if you are brave and responsible enough to take it. when it is time to play, we can play all we want..but when it is time to be serious..were u serious enough..

whether u r tzuching tzushao shigu shibo or grey shirt volunteers, do u portrait the correct image in the correct time? did u follow all the rules and restrictions? u may think that they are a lot. but they are jus some humanitarian doings. and it also help u save ur dignity. a lot times we think that these rules are restricting u from doing the things u like. but actually they aren't really rules. they are jus common sense and common manners.

shibo say how do u expect to influence the person when u urself is doing the wrong thing at the wrong time. how do u expect people to believe in u? i keep thinking maybe this batch of graduated tzushao havent grow up lah..it is ok..give them time..but now i think it is my image that is not helping them..

i regret..regret asking them to come for this camp and got observed by the shigu shibo..i regret.. regret asking huiying to be their group leader. i regret..regret saying that they should be in a group.. i regret.. regret not setting a good example in front of them.. maybe i m too close to them that makes me feel that dun scold them lah..they will get hurt..if i scold them got wad use.. they maybe will end up hating me..

i regret deeply and n m v sorry to huiying..i shouldn't let her take this stress.
but if i m really their grp leader..i m going to scold them when they are doing the wrong ting and the wrong time? will they listen to me? i m too selfish..

i hope today's talk will change them a bit. even if it is just a little bit.. i really hope that they learnt something and they felt the bigbigbig diffference between a tzushao and a tzuching.. i pray the grow..grow in term of wisdom.. because they are our only hope to making the change in the tzushao world.

about poly.. i pray that somebody will come and be our xuezhang.. i feel like leaving tzuching side already. maybe i should go overseas to study..
good bye air stewardess..i jus cant bear to leave tzuchi for air stewardess.
i pray that before i leave..to work or to study..i can help in the progress of tzushaos and tzuchings side..

!JAMIE :D


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